Day 4: Serafina’s 30 Days of Kink

Day 4: Serafina’s 30 Days of Kink

This entry is part 4 of 14 in the series 30 Days of Kink w/ Serafina

Early experiences that, in retrospect, hint at your kinks

 

Early experiences were there but not recognized  till later in life by myself.

serafina-spanked I have always been sexual from as far back as I can remember – about the age of 3 my mother laid me down for a nap with my sister the new baby was already sleeping.  It was a hot summer day, no central air- heck! no air conditioning even considered in our Saskatchewan farm house.

I had on a little cotton petticoat no knickers.  I was laying with one leg under the quilt, and one over.  I noticed the silky soft feeling between mt legs if I moved my body just so.  It felt so nice  and all at once I felt this delightful “tickle” that made me shiver.

I tried to find that tickle again, but it was not to be found again that day.  I remember trying on consecutive days to recreate that lovely tickle, but I honestly can not remember if I was successful.  It only occurred to me about the time I hit 50 that I’d actually had an orgasm.

AS I continued to grow and work and do chores  on the farm I would always wear skirts- by an enforced tradition in my parents home, and summers were often bare-bottomed while at home.  We raised geese, turkeys and chickens by incubating fertile eggs and goslings are one of the most favorite of mine.  They imprint on the first thing that they see moving right at the time of hatching.  In our case it is humans.

I found it great satisfaction to lead the goslings from an enclosed pen into the grass to let the graze.  They love to snuggle and they crawl all over my lap when I sat down and they nibble- tasting everything.  The bills of a young gosling is rubbery and soft.  Unlike their adult beaks which are strong, hard and powerful with razor edge.  They can pack a wallop of a bite leaving amazing bruises that last for weeks.

That is when a sly idea was born- I wondered what those soft rubbery beaks might feel like on my pussy lips.  hummm!  Well they weren’t  green and they didn’t seem edible to them so it was difficult to get them interested.  But their soft down was feeling just fine.  I do remember one of them taking a little nibble and it was delightful.

all this in the middle of an afternoon in the exposed farm-yard, but no one ever discovered my little secret.  I was very aware of being sexual even if I never associated being sexual with being Kinky- but I suppose it was.

Day 3: Serafina’s 30 Days of Kink

Day 3: Serafina’s 30 Days of Kink

This entry is part 3 of 14 in the series 30 Days of Kink w/ Serafina

How did you discover you were kinky? DSCN2538

I suppose there is latent or otherwise a kinky side in everyone.

I was no different.

I certainly had imaginary encounters with fictional characters or infatuations of real people.

I don’t think one awakes one day and realizes they are kinky.

I think it gradually dawns on folks.

I know it has with me.

I am aware that it is still dawning in a way.

Nearly every day there is a kink nuance to explore or discover. I have only admitted to being kinky in the past 12 years and that is a credit to the the man I proudly call Master today.

Master Michael is a true Dominant and Leader in that he wants what suits him, but he also wants to push for the very best person I could ever choose to be for him. He has opened doors to me that I could never have given myself permission for.

This in turn has developed increasing trust and respect that continues to grow and be tested.

How did you discover YOUR kink?

Dom, sub, switch? What parts of BDSM interest you?

Dom, sub, switch? What parts of BDSM interest you?

This entry is part 2 of 15 in the series 30 Days of Kink w/ Michael
  • Dom, sub, switch? What parts of BDSM interest you? Give us an interesting in-depth definition of what that means to you. Basically define your kinky self for us.

In terms of my kink identity, I am probably best described as a two sided coin.  One side is dominant, the other is sadistic.  In all things kink, however, I do look to achieve at least a modicum of personal mastery.

I’m not sure which side of my personality is stronger.  Perhaps they are truly equally balanced, on most occasions that does seem to be the case.

Certainly there are times where the dominant urges are stronger.  There are also other moments when the sadist comes to the forefront.  Overall the two sides are probably a lot like yin and yang, equal in measure yet intertwined and entangled inescapably with each other.

The desire for mastery covers all the different aspects of my personality.  That line of thinking probably goes back to my childhood, where from an early age I was taught that if I was going to bother doing something, I should learn to do it right.

As a result, I wish to be not only the consummate dominant, but also the quintessential sadist.

My interest in BDSM is wide ranging.  It’s my intent that my education, as well as my scope of knowledge, be as comprehensive as possible for one man.

I’ve studied a variety of fetishes that don’t have any real personal interest, not my thing at all.  But, when it’s all said and done, I wanted to (at the very least) know and understand what the particular fetish is all about.

Most things I’m willing to try once.  It’s always been my credo that you never know if you’ll enjoy something until you’ve tried it.  Now I know that’s not literally true, but the philosophy has had an impact on my own way of thinking.

I love BDSM and kink.  I think about kink every day, several times daily.  If I’m not thinking about kink, I’m either at work or I’m feeling ill.  Otherwise there’s a sort of “all kink all the time” festival happening in my brain.

Michael Samadhi - dominant and sadistWith kink on my mind all the time, it should come as no great surprise to discover that Serafina and I do our best to live our Master/slave lifestyle every day, and all the time.  That sort of round the clock commitment to BDSM is often referred to as 24/7 or 24/7 lifestyle.

That alone makes us an unusual couple.  At least one reference I have in my library claims that less than ten percent of the BDSM community practice their craft 24/7.  How Serafina and I live and love are a pretty unique set of circumstance.

The only “concession” we make to the vanilla world is that I am a small business owner, so I necessarily work outside the home.  Otherwise, we live our lifestyle as we see fit.

Serafina’s children are grown and gone, and we have no relatives living nearby.  So, we don’t have to make any lifestyle concessions due to family concerns.  And it’s a damn good thing too, as it’s pretty hard to hide a St Andrew’s Cross sitting in the top of stairs near my home’s entry. And, that’s not even the biggest potential shock to a vanilla type who might wander into our living room.  The Dungeon Bed at the other end of the living room has a built in cage under the bed.  The cage is good for a lot of things . . .

 Dom, sub, switch? What parts of BDSM interest you?

Day 1: Serafina’s 30 Days of Kink

Day 1: Serafina’s 30 Days of Kink

This entry is part 1 of 14 in the series 30 Days of Kink w/ Serafina
  • Dom, sub, switch? What parts of BDSM interest you? Give us an interesting in-depth definition of what that means to you. Basically define your kinky self for us.

Submissive by nature.  Submission is a choice as much as it is my nature.  Submissives have certain vulnerabilities to want to be compliant, and to make the world a better place

There is an external reality that each person needs to be treated a certain way in order for the relationship to thrive.  When you spend a clear night under the stars, most would probably say they feel uplifted, serene, dignified and yet humble.

Submission with dignity comes in part from a consciousness of your place within reality. Slavery sets the standard that much higher.  For me, having dignity goes hand-in-hand with having humility. Humility, as CS Lewis famously said, is not thinking less of oneself but rather, thinking of oneself less.

I have dignity because I recognize that I have value to my Master, while not degrading myself except at rare times in the limited context of a scene. I do not need to be a doormat or trash in order to be a slave; quite to the contrary. By thinking of him more, and myself less, I demonstrate both humility and dignity.

serafina portrait of a slaveThe submissive has intrinsic value as a human being with needs and wants which must be considered if the relationship is to be healthy and lasting: I need to feel loved, desired, cherished, safe and protected.

To be an insatiable craving for him. To be controlled, dominated, used for his pleasure. To be praised when deserved, corrected when needed. To belong to him and to always feel totally and completely owned. To be allowed to express my feelings of devotion and love for him.

Master Michael is the source of those needs. He is a person and needs to be attached to for who they are, not for what they bring to the table. I want to serve him, to give him my everything, and to have him offer me the protection for the soft, fragile or Dyslexic sides of me that I want to share with him.

I need to be pushed to be more, better, to reach for more inside myself to give. I need to be controlled, not totally because I do need some independence. I need to be able to make my Master my World, as much as I need to be His.

I need to accept that I am worthy of his attention and love. I need him to take me out of my head when I think too much and over analyze. I need to feel his Dominance and his strength and protection